Part of living life your way is living with the insecurity of not knowing where exactly your life is taking you. But that’s what you wanted in the first place, a non-conformed life, no happy weddings, no baby showers, no if I do this it will make my parents happy scenes of son going to graduate from Wharton. At every not-so-great move you make if you can beat the insecurity of it all, then you can move on the same path, if you decide hell I cant take this insecurity anymore let me just be an engineer, you’ve just died. And rebirths are rare.

How did we get this way? Who first formed the idea of the typical or the unique? Why do we want to be different? Coz the world is over populated? Who put the thought in our heads that we want to be different? Coz we observed that such people were getting noticed and we want to be noticed too? Why do we feel we are living in oblivion until the world recognizes us?

Its in the way humans feel. Maybe you don’t feel the need to be different when you have hot young blood flowing through your veins, maybe that’s when you feel it the most, that’s the word, DEPENDS. But it is innate in a human being to like to be admired, recognized, and respected and feel a notch above the rest. Or maybe its animalistic, maybe we should see beyond this to attain nirvana.

So do we really wanna attain nirvana?

Whats nirvana like? I dunno, then who cares.

Fuck this is such a pointless discussion.

Where is god I want some answers.