I just realized that I have not been fuilfilling my soul desires for very long. I have been chasing the money longer than I would imagine. Sometimes its good to be this way, carefree, and doing what comes to you naturally. I feel my writing has suffered. I see so many interesting blogs, blogosphere etiquette, and new rules to the game, and many many people who are funny and intelligent. The blogosphere is the way to osmos-ify the smarter folk. It’s an opinionated society and I am glad all the more. I remember someone who said sometime that “I hate what you’re saying about me, but I would kill for your right to say it”.

I got the comment that my blog, not increasingly, but from the very beginning, has been very personal, and even those who know me fairly well don’t get an idea of what I am trying to say. That dosent say very much about my writing skills now, does it? Well..anyway now that I have a life (LOL) I can say with reasonable confidence that I am here to improve and bring back my writing to what I’d like it to be. And I am not going on an attack on blogs-are-personal-so-I-wont-please-audience kinds. I don’t think anyone who loves to write, writes to impress the audience, like someone said, after writing it feels good to be appreciated. I think this is a trite, stale, rotten old debate and I refuse to delve into it any further. That very last sentence sums up my life, contradiction. I don’t write to please the audience, if you studied statistics, or even otherwise, you would understand that if you are appreciated the first time it is likely that you would want to unconsciously incorporate the audience-factor the next time you are writing, and make attempts to be funny, witty, sound intelligent, among other things, which you might not have done otherwise.